Ummm... that's uncomfortable....

Some days scripture was all I could write.  All I could do was run to His arms, opening and beckoning me to His word... I think that is exactly where He wants us all.  So, below you will find scripture after scripture that spoke to me during this time.  They were a balm to my soul.  I pray you would read each one and be comforted.  

Around this time, I started to realize that people were moving on and talking about my sweet Jack was starting to become uncomfortable.  Not for me, but for those around me.  I thought, really??  I mean... really?  It's a shame that we shy away from talking... talking about grief.  Talking about our loss.  Tomorrow is infant death awareness... did you even know there was such a day?  I read this quote and it spoke straight to my heart.  It would have back at this time in my journey, but even now, when I want to talk, this quote speaks to my heart.  Elizabeth Edwards, "If you know someone who has lost a child, and you're afraid to mention them because you think you might make them sad by reminding them that they died--you're not reminding them. They didn't forget they died. What you're reminding them of is that you remembered that they lived, and...that is a great gift."  You see, it was becoming uncomfortable for those around me, yet I still had to go through all the milestones of loosing my son and yet, now I couldn't speak of it, it seemed.  When I saw my son's name on his head stone for the first time, I broke.  I piece of me broke.  There it was for all to see... my baby's name on the ground forever in memorial to him.  I wanted to talk that day.  Who can I talk to on his 5th birthday?  Who can I talk to on the day he should start kindergarden?  Who can I talk to each time I think of my little man?  Will you be there to let someone talk without making it uncomfortable?  Will you be a safe place for someone?  Will you be a comfort from Jesus to someone who needs you?

5/15/07

Psalm 127: 3 “Behold, children are a heritage from the Lord, the fruit of the womb is His reward.

5/24/07

Romans 8: 1 “Therefore there is now NO condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit of life set me free from the law of sin and death.”

Romans 8: 6 “The mind of sinful man is death, but the mind controlled by the Spirit is life and peace; the sinful mind is hostile to God.”

Romans 8: 15 “For you did not receive a spirit that makes you a slave again to fear, but you received the spirit of son- ship. And by him we cry, “Abba, Father.”

Romans 8: 24,25 “For in this hope we were saved. But hope that is seen is no hope at all. Who hopes for what he already has? But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait patiently.”

5/29/07 

Yesterday we got to go see Jack’s head stone for the first time…. Memorial Day. How fitting. It was so hard to see my little boy’s name there. I miss him so much!

It seems to me that people are getting to a place where they don’t want me to talk about Jack as much, but some will always let me. I miss my little boy! 

Ecclesiastes 11: 5 “As you do not know the path of the wind, or how the body is formed in a mother’s womb, so you cannot understand the work of God, the maker of all things."

Jeremiah 29: 11 “For I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord, plans for good and not evil, to give you a future and a hope."

Psalm 46:1 “God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble.” 

Psalm 41: 10 “So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." 

Psalm 118: 25-29 “You are my God, and I will give you thinks; you are my God and I will exalt you. Give thanks to the Lord, for he is good; his love endures forever.” 

Psalm 55; 22 “Cast your cares on the Lord and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous fall.” 

Psalm 56: 3-4, 8, 11“When I am afraid, I will trust in you. In God, whose work I praise, in God I trust; I will not be afraid. What can mortal man do to me?"  

“Record my lament; list my tears on your scroll- are they not in your record?”

“In God I trust; I will not be afraid. What can man do to me?”