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Romans 8:38 "For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither heights nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord."

I can not begin to tell you how excited I am to begin this journey with you here. I have been praying for you and will commit to continue to pray for you as we walk through some hard times together. I want you to know and believe in the depths of your heart that you are so loved by the one true God, and no matter what happens, that will not change because He has not changed. I have walked through some fire, my friends, and yet I know that I am loved and I am not alone... not ever... even when I think that is exactly what I want. I have started this blog to share with you how I have come to know that truth. You see, I found myself at a crossroads 4 years ago today - a place where I had to decide if I really, truly, in my heart of hearts believed that God is who he says he is, because he says he is good, holy, righteous, all-knowing, all-powerful, and in total control, and I had just had to watch my son's heartbeat dwindle down to zero. I had to watch as nurses unplugged my son's body from the so-called "life saving" machines and give his lifeless body to me. My spirit and my soul felt empty and afraid... grieved, confused, my body longing to nurse my son, to provide sustenance to my baby. Yet he grew cold fast, he was gone, and I would never be the same again.

So, here I am... changed. And yet, still changing. Isn't God so amazing that He would not see fit to leave us alone and unchanged? He wants us to draw into a deeper and deeper relationship with Him... so He pursues us and nudges us and sometimes just plain ole kicks us into change. For His glory and, my friends, for YOUR GOOD! It's a promise that we can take a hold of and know it is true.

So, here's the deal: when I was pregnant, my amazing and totally gorgeous husband wrote a blog to update our friends and family with any new news from our numerous doctors appointments. I am going to re-share those with you here with some input from me on where I was and what was going on in my brain and heart. Then, because the Lord was so kind to me, He gave me a desire to journal (total act of God) the things He showed me through His word starting about 4 weeks after I had lost Jack Michael. I am going to share that with you too. I pray He will speak through me to the very core of your heart and that you will find comfort and love that comes only from Him. So, here is where we will cast off the silence that comes with the loss of a child. We are going to talk about what we feel we can't talk about to anyone. This is an open door for you to share and to grieve and to rejoice. Maybe you haven't lost a child, but I am betting that you have suffered in some way. I pray you find comfort here too.

So, please, come with me down this very intimate and deep journey... feel free to invite others!